Over the weekend we went to Providence for a friend's birthday party. We hadn't seen these friends in a while, because apparently every few years I need to go into a self-imposed witness protection style hibernation in which I don't speak to or communicate with people I care very deeply about for YEARS. Literal years. … Continue reading Mad At Myself
I took an oil painting class in college. It was a required course for my BFA in studio arts and I dreaded every moment of it. Mostly because two dimensional art is not my strength, but also because my professor was vague and I needed structure. The first few classes focused on mixing paint on … Continue reading Scumbling
Deciding to Decide
(This is a warning of sorts to say there will often be times when I repeat a theme or a thought because I am trying to come at it from another angle. I not going to bother to look at a potentially similar previous post so I don't get suckered into saying the same thing. … Continue reading Deciding to Decide
Yesterday was a weird day. I feel like I say that all the time now, every day. But it was weird and something was eating away at my brain and I let it consume me. By the time I went to bed I was super agitated. Everything was annoying, the book I was reading, the … Continue reading Limbo
I locked myself out of the house yesterday. It was late in the day, I'd gone out to water the plants and normally I check the handle lock on the door before I leave because sometimes it locks (on its own? Maybe when I last unlocked the door, I inadvertently lock it?) and I panic. … Continue reading Progress
My mom used to tell me stories about running track in high school. She was a sprinter, and she'd tell me dramatic tales of turning on the jets at the end of the race to win. It sounded amazing so when I got to junior high and track season started I joined the team. We … Continue reading Efficiency
Stay, Go. Go, Stay.
Have you ever seen the movie The Man Who Came to Dinner? I've never seen it, but I know a Jimmy Durante song from it. It sticks in my head sometimes. “Did you ever get the feeling that you wanted to go, But still had the feeling that you wanted to stay, You knew it … Continue reading Stay, Go. Go, Stay.
Nobody Wants to Read a Tick-Tock
Just because the pizza is there, doesn't mean you should eat it. I am taking some time off of work to write. More than some I suppose, I have no timeline for when I will re-enter the work force. And it is weird and awkward and uncomfortable because I am writing about myself. It feels … Continue reading Nobody Wants to Read a Tick-Tock
I forgot to post yesterday and I'm beating myself up about it, but I'm going to double up today and schedule something for the weekend to make up for it. So why did I forget? Yesterday I decided to barf out a bunch of sentences with no real thought of where to begin or where … Continue reading Embracing Mistakes
Adapt or Perish
A few months into winter, when my feet only see the light of day while in the safety and comfort of a warm shower, I begin to wonder if I will ever be able to walk barefoot through the house without feeling miserably cold. Will it ever be nice enough to open the windows and … Continue reading Adapt or Perish